lama gila tinggal kerja- kerja research! almost 3 weeks. selamba gila cuti lama macam diri sendiri yang nak menikah. haha! agaknya kalau kenduri sendiri, berapa lama la aku perlukan untuk siapkan semuanya. serius penat. penat badan, penat otak. so thankful ada relatives and friends yang tolong.
tapi, tu lah kan. bila balik rumah, 3 minggu rasa sekejap sangat. rasa macam baru singgah kl, jalan-jalan, sampai rumah terus buat sesi mengemas yang tak berpenghujung, big day, tup-tup dah kena rushing balik uni.
bila nama pun dah rushing, confirm la 1 kerja pun tak buat lagi. sampai bilik pukul 6 pagi, masuk meeting 4 jam kemudian. kau rasa? dengan mengantuk, period pain penat badan semua tu.. dan, seperti yang dijangka, meminta kena tegur dengan sv la jawabnya. what a day..
so, seminggu jugak la moody. seminggu jugak la nak kena start balik cari-cari dari mana nak sambung kerja. rasa tak tahu nak mula dari mana tu , ya ampuuuuuun... siap ada rasa nak quit, nak tukar mode, nak cari kerja, financial unstable lagi, application part time job kena reject, macam-macam la.
see, people. what i want to highlight when something like this happened is;
first, find your support system. be with someone who can console you, and recharge your energy. the best advice that i received that day is, 'remember why you start in the first place'. sound simple kan?tapi, time give up tu, ingat senang ke nak fikir pasal restart? but, that's the real challenge, peeps. as an adult, life will not stop even when you want it so. tamau duduk dalam tempat negatif lama-lama. bahaya.
second, open your eyes, your mind, and your heart. yes, we need to plan our journey. but remember, our plan might not be as best as God's plan. ada masa, kita plan A to C, but actually we are destined to D. at some extent, even we are not be able to reach B. so, try to be flexible. plan a target,tapi try to be as much flexible as we can. stop dengan stigma 'nak ini, kena lalu jalan ini je.' don't limit yourself. sebab 20- 25 is our golden time. find your own way to shine. other can talk,but it is you to decide whether to take the advice or omit it. bright side, tak seronok la semua orang lalu jalan sama. tak cool jugak ikut jalan orang je. :)
wuish, cakap macam power, kan? haha. well, kita sendiri yang tahu apa yang kita dah lalui. we are the diamond in the making. insya Allah. kelemahan kita, kekuatan kita, kta la kena acknowledge tu. macam baru ni, aku berborak dengan kawan. dia cakap yang dia tak suka bila orang sentuh pasal family. suddenly, from an active person, dia tukar mode jadi passive and overprotective. itu weak point dia. dia pun admit tu.
other time, aku borak-borak, aku cakap aku stress pasal duit. aku tak boleh la tade duit etc. pastu kawan tu bagi nasihat berkualiti sikit. entah macam mana, keluar ayat dia, 'tak apalah, bukan masalah besar sangat macam ada masalah broken family etc'. pastu aku selamba reply, 'ha dulu pu huru-hara la jugak kejap. lama-lama dah okay.'
see people, i know nak achieve tahap menerima dengan redha tu takes time and effort, but don't let others define you solely based on your weaknesses, okay? you will move on. you can move on. and after you move on for a better you, look back and smile at your old self. because you made it this far.
macam apa yang aku buat ahad lepas, tepuk bahu sendiri sambil senyum, 'you did it'. aku pun tak sangka dapat siapkan proposal after quite a stormy week.
xoxo
