Lost in the Crowd

it is a hideous fact that I am trying to accept. I am lost. It has been 6 months since i started this journey but I achieve nothing. I attended classes and should produced proposal but nope, it doesn't happen like that. I searched for data, but it is not easily available. Everything I've planned gone wrong.

Remember one of the post where I mentioned types of support? I am in need of those. Moral support. Financial support. Ideas support. I need peace and creative thinking support. 

over my 20 years of life, I barely feel peer pressure. I realize that everyone should not compare themselves with others' achievement. But, oh God. I totally feel defeated now. Seeing friends with stable income monthly, steady relationship, good family bonding. Stranded alone in here really makes me demotivated. 

I guess I need to work harder. I need to find formal job. I cant stay like this for a long time. This situation is killing me. 

Looking on the bright side, God send friends to cheer me up. Last night, I felt down and under the weather. Since I need to eat or else I will get gastric attack for 3 days straight, I got up and went to fest near my hostel. Luckily, someone say hi to me. you know how i feel at that moment? Blessed! It is like, "thank you so much God for hearing me. I know I am the one who put a distant with you, but you treat me so well."

and last, tadi aku mengaji and I found this. AlKahfi:110. Macam sniper.