remember that phrase was viral in 2018 after a politician speech? 😜
well, today's post is not about it actually. It's just that new semester has begin today. As a research student, I may not feel any difference since I've got no semester break.
However, remember that last semester I took 2 classes? Yeah, the result came out yesterday. and until now, I have no guts to take a peek to see my result. i don't know what i should do. i mean, i know that i've spoilt both classes' assignments. Late and half done submission, and now i cannot bear the fact that i may need to repeat that subject again. (i've the feeling of repeating paper next semester.)
somehow, i feel like i wanna rebel. i am in the process of accept the fact that i've lost a dear supporter. 3 months passed by but i just cannot handle the pressure of assignments and that stress feeling at the same time back then. thus, this is the result. NOTHING. NULL. NIL. NADA. I am the one who lost in the mental battle.
Maybe some of you will say,
"it's only small matter"
"how can you put away your academic life?"
well, i just did.
i guess, repeat paper is not a bad thing after all. at one point, of course it's a waste of time and money. but, on a bright side, i can have a deep learning, and have more time and supervision from experts. i feel love. i really hope experience is my best teacher. may mistakes taught me well and i learn something from it.
writing this post makes my day a lil bit gloomy but i am hoping for a full moonlight.
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